Simple afternoons have a certain air
Tasteless and aimless, they aren’t prepared
Overturning leaves stir damp soils beneath
Pause and march on, as if you did not see
Guilt from yesterday, wet and in your face
If suffering is relative, make it go away
Venom with each word, drips down your chin
I believe we’d all prefer that you suck it back in
No one cares to bother with you these days anymore
Girls are figuring out the only thing you’re good for
You’re golden with black inside
Outer shine designed to hide
Unspeakable betrayals of the heart and tongue
Reckless detachment will one day come
Sneaking up behind you to stab you in the back
Every wrong will rightfully find you and dig into your black
Loosen your ambivalence and call it what it is
Fast-building arrogance manifests itself like this
Serenading lines are best left behind
Obvious and gross, we are no longer so blind
Masking your selfishness with love is cruel
Universal laws will someday pull
Corners together to build walls where they belong
Halving the free from those hanging on
Clearance will be made for those who’ve meant what they’ve said
Redemption won’t be had for the living dead
Embarrassing the spirit and beauty in the truth
Does the mirror ever ask questions of you?
Is it working for you, bent and manipulated
Trying to deny your self-obsession is what leaves you lonely and hated.
Stretch your muscles
They’re tight from last night
You’re an aching soldier
With a new day to fight
There are already wrinkles gathering at your eyes
After hearing your story, I can’t say I’m surprised
These days the sun only mocks you
Each time you’ve thought you put it to sleep
Each time you told the dark a secret
You’ve no longer got a secret to keep
Button up your coat
and weigh yourself with arms
You haven’t got a choice but to go
And since you’ve barely even got a heart
It shouldn’t matter what they do to you out there.
And my hands betray my heart
On a daily basis
It wouldn’t be this hard
If the mirror didn’t have so many faces
But I push you out the door
The cold standing on my neck
I don’t want you anymore
Nor do I want this regret
That’s been pushing through my mind
Always swimming toward the surface
I’ve been gone all this time
But these words are worthless
I never want to meet anyone in Brooklyn again
I don’t want to find out that you two are friends
I’ll be slumped in a chair with a case to defend
On how you’ve ruined all my interest in men
I’ve got a plan to take myself out on dates
And I won’t have to worry about the train running late
Cause neither me nor myself will be expected to wait
For you on your way to commiserate
They say I give you too much power
When I let you make me cry
But they don’t know shit cause you make me wanna die
So I’d say I’ve kept some power as long as I’m alive
Filed under: 2009
We climbed a hill and sat for a while
Held each other and all the while
You were never really there
And all I can do is stare
Past your eyes this time
Our love was never mine
Lately, I’m alright with that…I
Only hope that you never come back
God didn’t give me the strength
It’s simply the way
Zero spine in this aching back and
Even now, I’m okay with that
Filed under: 2009, RHYMING | Tags: baggage, love poetry, new beginnings, poetry, resolution, sad poetry
Sometimes the wind just blows
And I never seem to know if I will follow
It started to rain, so I waited for the pour
With my cheek cemented on an old friend’s floor
And I didn’t want to sleep cause I didn’t want to dream anymore
My legs must get so tired of me
I bet my piling baggage gets heavy
In the morning, there was coffee made
And under its black, I dug my grave
I crawled into a caffeine high
And told him to leave me there ’til I died
Of course an old friend would never oblige
Old friends see straight through your lies
Home is where the heart is
And my heart is everywhere
He is where my mind is
But my heart don’t wanna go back there
He wasn’t right for me, but no one ever was
And I’d rather lie to myself, than never be in love
New friends don’t always see your lies
They walk right past them sometimes
The newest friends are always the most blind
And they tend to be my favorite kind
They hold so much trust in their open hand
Makes me sad I can’t be who they think I am
So I went wild and cursed a lot
Cried until my eyes were bloodshot
An old friend told me nothin’ was actually wrong
Accused me of makin’ it up for the sake of a song
So I drove west into the sun
Didn’t bother to call anyone
Showed my face in my hometown
Where everyone can see why I’ve really been down
“That city is killing you”
“Those people are so cold”
“Get back to where you started before you’re wasted and old”
He’d love to think I’d have him marry me
But I just needed an accomplice to help bury these
Half and non truths beneath the coffee’s black
He was a new friend without a spine in his back
So I twisted and made believe
That the resistance was foreplay for the reprieve
I was blind, but now I see
All that baggage is bad for your knees
