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I’m scratching at the walls again
Bleeding in my own absence
Parables finally call me in
And on my on self-righteousness
I stand below statutes
Of fraud, flaw, and fragility
Not sure if I can choose
If it’s god or law that’s failing me.
Stretch your muscles
They’re tight from last night
You’re an aching soldier
With a new day to fight
There are already wrinkles gathering at your eyes
After hearing your story, I can’t say I’m surprised
These days the sun only mocks you
Each time you’ve thought you put it to sleep
Each time you told the dark a secret
You’ve no longer got a secret to keep
Button up your coat
and weigh yourself with arms
You haven’t got a choice but to go
And since you’ve barely even got a heart
It shouldn’t matter what they do to you out there.
And my hands betray my heart
On a daily basis
It wouldn’t be this hard
If the mirror didn’t have so many faces
But I push you out the door
The cold standing on my neck
I don’t want you anymore
Nor do I want this regret
That’s been pushing through my mind
Always swimming toward the surface
I’ve been gone all this time
But these words are worthless
Filed under: 2008, RHYMING, Uncategorized | Tags: poetry, existential poetry, crazy poetry
I feel a little crazy
I feel a little dark
I feel like I’m in a rush
With no where to park
And you are so peaceful
Calm and bright
I feel a little crazy
Lying next to you tonight
And no one can save me
If I go down this road
Where the horizon meets the black
Where no one dares to go
I drive into the sun alone
It’s always been my way
To convince myself I’ve got a home
And something meaningful to say
But I’ve got nothin’ but a shadow
Nothin’ but a pen
Nothin’ but boundless love
Looking to be spent
Nothin’ but a talking mind
Nothin’ but a lost soul
Nothing here was ever mine
Nor in my control
you’re worth more than i’m worth
so many of the things i want to say
you already said first
the kids know your lines, they’re better than mine
and you’re worth more than i’m worth
they’ll watch your back for you
cover your drink at the bar
the girls will always come back for you
cause everybody knows who you are
you curl your toes in your socks in your shoes on your stool
catch my reflection on the whisky glass
you wonder how i’ve been
but tonight you’ve got too much pride to ask
from here you look empty
do i look empty too?
a water drop to your bottom echoes
did you know your walls are see through?
your breath makes fog
on the orange-lit sidewalk
my breath retreats back into my throat
tying my tongue so it can’t talk
the best way to find a person
is through thickly awkward silence
so keep fidgeting
until your entourage finds us
they’ll parade you back to safety
but you’ll leave something behind
your breath’s footprints on my neck
i’ll pencil them in, prove they’re mine
and when you go home and write tonight
you’ll write it better than this
you’ll make it so much more beautiful
than it actually is
but you fight wars with your words
you stop the earth in its turn
you hunt down bridges to burn
and i listen and learn
because you came first
and you’re worth more than i’m worth
Filed under: 2008, RHYMING, Uncategorized | Tags: angry poem, broken heart poetry, hurt poetry, poetry
I am fucking falling apart.
But don’t worry, I know you don’t care.
You’ve got a meat grinder where I have a heart
And when I reach out for your hand
It’s never there
Your gray shadow spins off
down some unobtainable street
I follow without thinking
never missing a beat
you carry my closure
like a pistol in hand
strapped onto your hip
just in case i ever stand
up from this pain
up from the cold ground
so you can turn and face me
and shoot me back down
i have nothing to live for
chained to you
and i have nothing to show for
the miles of mud you’ve dragged me through
i have nothing to offer you
untie me and leave me to rot
at least the vultures
would indulge in the one thing i’ve got
untainted by your love
and lack thereof
if it would make you feel right
in light of this abuse
i’ll tell the press that you held on
and I cut myself loose
i’ll tell them the truth
that i’m a masochist
and no one will blame you
cause i asked for all of this
I am not the conniver
I wish I were
Instead you are him
And I am her
The girl being used
Who just doesn’t leave
And when I exit the room
My friends say they can’t believe
That I can be so weak
But baby I’m the queen of
bones too soft to walk away
and tongues too tied to speak
so put me out of my misery
cause i don’t have the strength in me
they say failed romantics are critics
if thats the nail of my head
they swung down and hit it
and knocked me into the dirt
and im so dizzy that nothing hurts
i hear the media is a lie
and women write misery for other women
as collective gender suicide
well if everything they write is a lie
then what is this and who am i
they told me to trust my instinct
and go with my gut
but my intuition is flawed
so i keep my mouth shut
all the world’s a stage
or that’s what i heard someone say
so if we’re all actors
and this is a play
when do we bow
and go home for the day?
someone said you were bad news
but i like to get my news first hand
i’d want you to walk in my shoes
i’d want you to stand where i stand
before determining how good
or bad you think i am
so I wonder how bad people say I am…
I hope you all know that i mean everything i say
even when i dont mean it at all
I hope that one day we can all be friends
Sit around a fire, share stories of what we saw
When we were on the road
Taking our lives for granted
When we our problems were the only ones
That existed on this planet
I hear that artists are all crazy
And self involved
So kill us now or ship us off
And your problem should be solved
But then what would you listen to
And what would you watch
And what would you hang on your walls
And what you read
And do in the evenings
Besides catch us
Every time we’re about to fall
They say we all need each other
Do you believe that?
We live and die alone
but do it in back to back
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